give me half your attention
i will give you half the content
give me a portion of a whole and i will tailor to the missing presence.
The idea of one's attentiveness
swinging back and forth , a pendulum worked by hand through my inconsistencies
half an ear open and as something spikes your interests you pull focus
but for that initial observation to be made there must be some portion present, there must be a complete element within that incompleteness, a fullness within the dimness.
Notions of 'half' can be precise but also vague, speaking of a vagueness within language
Think about being present and absent simultaneously.
I had some counseling a few years ago, it was only towards the end that i had a shift in attitude, during the early weeks i sat as though on the other side of a chess board, awaiting instruction, i imagined the process like a syllogism, if we started with my premise then as she unpacked hers invariably it must lead to an answer . I waited passively, passive defensive.
Only when i decided to stop going and an end date was set did i realise anything i now consider to be of value. I invested more, wrote down thoughts immediately afterwards and considered what re occurred, in essence i obtained a new presence in that room, more convex than concave. A new shape i was slowly shading by hand
In those early weeks i think i played a role of being both present and absent , each time i left with empty vessels wondering why they hadn't filled them.
To be something and it's very other together ,
I was attending yet continually inattentive, offering incomplete intentions
Being half present and receiving only half the information but to treat this as a whole and begin again from there.
grouping images together, they become more , more than what? more than they were before , or rather they become different something a new. Looking at them in a different context , juxtaposed, re scaled perhaps they can claim newness from within their new voices and forms.
Where one image speaks several re aligned now move in union and seem to convey an undefined new purpose.
I remember often thinking how some events and phrases have more potency in their re enactment , the re telling was somehow greater than the thing itself or rather only in the re telling does it temporarily access the greatness we profess it to contain. Like editing a final piece of code , we insert the integral lines of information